So, im a talker. I mean, I like to talk about almost anything and everything.
If I do something stupid...I want to talk about it.
Have a bad/good/inbetween day...yeahh, lets talk.
Im a wreck.
Im human.
Ya know?
I've been feeling like Im in a rut lately.
Not to complain, too much..
Buuut, I've been home from school since, like, I cant even remember when.
I feel so uncreative lately.
I desperately need change.
I dont know what kind of change i need yet.
But...the only thing constant is change.
Or, so im told.
I have options, you know.
School.
Mission.
Going home.
Moving.
Im so messed up its not funny.
I dont like change.
Yet, I crave it.
Not normal?
Yeahh, I know.
I think when I get this way I start doing stupid things.
Not, horrible im going to hell kinda things.
Juuust, things I know better than to do.
For instance, giving my number to a stranger in my parking lot.
I crave attention.
It wasnt smart I know.
Buuut, it happened.
I regret it.
I think this week im going to work on focusing my need for attention to something useful, helpful..
If thats possible.
On Thursday, im going with the Sister missionaries to help teach about the Restoration.
Im kind of excited--theres no better way to spend my extra time.
Im hoping by spending this time with the Lord, doing his work, gets me out of my rut.
I desperately need to feel something again.
I need to feel alive, needed, inspired...something.
Someone who inspires me right now, Josiah Leming.
Heres one of my fave's
He has a new website...
You get a free download if you visit.
Enjoy..
BLOG! iloveit. it's an emotional outlet. i will enjoy following you.
ReplyDeletelisten, you're only 21, options are endless, my doc once told me i could do ANYTHING I WANTED. i like that. because it's true.
though i think you should really want to go on a mish right now :)
your situation reminds me much of mine, oh say, 2ish years ago.
te amo.